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Everything Sucks or is Meh

By: Bobby Finstock on 02/10/10 @ 12:09 pm

(There isn’t a single joke in this post, I needed to write this for myself.)

A few months ago when I was seeing U2 for the first time in my life, a concert that I had been waiting to go to since I was 15, I sat there and felt zero excitement. They had a grandiose stage, I was with a date, I had beer, and the music was good but I was just… meh. It worried me that I didn’t give a shit.

Also around the same time frame I was going through and fixing old posts on this very blog and noticed how I used to be so much more jovial and even if I didn’t like something I poked fun at it in a more lighthearted and non bitter way. (This is one of the reasons that you have seen a decline in the amount I have been posting.)

In looking at my life I am more professionally accomplished than I have ever been. I am making more money than I ever have. My dating and love life is fine. And really by all accounts everything is fine, except for some reason I have become a negative and miserable human being. It got to the point where I wasn’t enjoying anything on any level. It has been pretty scary.

For a few months I wondered if I should go someone, a psychologist or a psychiatrist. Maybe I was suffering from depression or maybe there were other things causing this. The thing is it wasn’t like I was sleeping a ton or really withdrawing or anything. I didn’t fit most of the signs of depression. So I decided to evaluate my life and what was going on.

I noticed that I was being bombarded consistently with negativity. Not in some metaphysical, new age, or hippie type of way but whom and what I was surrounding myself with was doing it. I have decided to make some changes to see if it improves my overall demeanor.

1) No more sports talk radio- I listen to music while I work from home most of the time. When I get in the car I listen to sports talk radio to change things up. The problem with sports talk radio is that it is pretty over the top, the highs are high and the lows are low. But Boston sports talk radio is just completely off the charts with negativity. If you were stranded on a desert island for the last ten years and came back to the US and turned on sports talk radio here in Boston you would think that every single one of their teams sucked. Not that they have won three Super Bowls, 2 World Series, and a NBA Championship over the last ten years.

I don’t gain anything from listening to this: no magic insight, I don’t care about the teams around here, and it isn’t like I am learning anything.

2) I am going to become apathetic when it comes to politics- Will I vote still? Yes. But watching any cable news shows or absorbing any of the ridiculousness that passes for political discourse is over. The system and the people in it are broken. (Both sides) And the discourse and debate around politics have turned into a ridiculous PR battle with zero substance. Cable news doesn’t cut through the bullshit of it they just encourage it.

The most news I will watch will be the nightly news or the BBC world news. (At best.) I will no longer tune into a cable news show. Also I am not going to debate politics on FB or Twitter. In fact I am just going to hide people that say ignorant things and not attempt to engage in a debate with them.

3) Enjoy Life- Do things that I want to do. I don’t need to consistently work.

Okay I had to get that off my chest.

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Bobby Finstock

Finstock is founder of Pointlessbanter.net. He is known for his encyclopedia like knowledge on the life and times of Scott Baio. In the future he hopes to write again under his own name in order to impress the ladies and build his celebrity to the levels of other failed internet writers.

6 Responses to “Everything Sucks or is Meh”

  1. JD says:

    Honest post.

    Have gone through similar periods myself, the key is to be aware … which you are … and tweak the formula of life.

    Sometimes it is weird, seemingly inconsequential details, like diet, or sports radio.

    If you don’t regain your zest for life … maybe try a new soap.

    (this is by far one of the best posts i’ve read by you)

  2. Byron says:

    The key is to enjoy life. There is not point in making money if you arent going to enjoy it. I have had to serious health scares in my life. Becuase of that I have decided not to put too much concern in what others think of me and to just DO things. I work less now, but seem to make more money and enjoy it. If I decide to screw off and not work for a day or two I do it. I have gotten up in the morning and booked same day flight just to get out of town.

  3. pattypunker says:

    this post was for you, but it actually helped me, too. thanks for your honesty. i sincerely hope your plan to cut out the negative helps bring back some feeling. blank sucks. i know it doesn’t really fit in with your scheme, but loud angsty music doesn’t hurt. it’s cathartic to scream along. that and some sunshine would be really fucking helpful.

  4. melanie d says:

    i can totally relate. i went through a time where i went from sarcastic and witty, to evil and bitchy. it was no good. so i just looked at my life and did a very similar thing to what you are. i cut out all of the stuff, including people, that i figured were making me miserable. it worked.

  5. Julio says:

    I have battled with depression for most of my life, and let me tell you, it’s no pick-nick (is there anything more ‘meh’ than a pick-nick?). Luckily for you, it seems, lifestyle was the culprit, and was cured by a little introspective investigation. This, however, is not so for everyone, though is strongly advised nonetheless.

    What is more sinister than a disorder that attacks your very capability to “care” about anything? Most of what we do in life is because we “care” about doing it, and on top of that, your ability to have fun is also compromised. The line separating man from robot is blurred in that respect, and unfortunately, this analogy is painfully accurate. To become a hardened shell with logic and reason but completely devoid of emotion — perhaps this is a dream of many computer scientists, but in reality, this lack of feeling results in the absence of meaning in one’s life. Without any sense of meaning in your life, the question of “what’s the point?” has horrendous implications.

    Just know that while it IS NORMAL to feel this way every once in a while, often at a crossroad in one’s life, it is NOT NORMAL to feel this way all the time, and if you do, seek help IMMEDIATELY, before it’s too late.

  6. Pam says:

    How well I understand. Life is ebb and flow, my friend. It’s in the valleys that we learn to appreciate the beauty of the mountains.

    I am SO glad to have found you again! I’ve missed you! I LIKE this side of you. Be you. Always be you.

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