(There isn’t a single joke in this post, I needed to write this for myself.)
A few months ago when I was seeing U2 for the first time in my life, a concert that I had been waiting to go to since I was 15, I sat there and felt zero excitement. They had a grandiose stage, I was with a date, I had beer, and the music was good but I was just… meh. It worried me that I didn’t give a shit.
Also around the same time frame I was going through and fixing old posts on this very blog and noticed how I used to be so much more jovial and even if I didn’t like something I poked fun at it in a more lighthearted and non bitter way. (This is one of the reasons that you have seen a decline in the amount I have been posting.)
In looking at my life I am more professionally accomplished than I have ever been. I am making more money than I ever have. My dating and love life is fine. And really by all accounts everything is fine, except for some reason I have become a negative and miserable human being. It got to the point where I wasn’t enjoying anything on any level. It has been pretty scary.
For a few months I wondered if I should go someone, a psychologist or a psychiatrist. Maybe I was suffering from depression or maybe there were other things causing this. The thing is it wasn’t like I was sleeping a ton or really withdrawing or anything. I didn’t fit most of the signs of depression. So I decided to evaluate my life and what was going on.
I noticed that I was being bombarded consistently with negativity. Not in some metaphysical, new age, or hippie type of way but whom and what I was surrounding myself with was doing it. I have decided to make some changes to see if it improves my overall demeanor.
1) No more sports talk radio- I listen to music while I work from home most of the time. When I get in the car I listen to sports talk radio to change things up. The problem with sports talk radio is that it is pretty over the top, the highs are high and the lows are low. But Boston sports talk radio is just completely off the charts with negativity. If you were stranded on a desert island for the last ten years and came back to the US and turned on sports talk radio here in Boston you would think that every single one of their teams sucked. Not that they have won three Super Bowls, 2 World Series, and a NBA Championship over the last ten years.
I don’t gain anything from listening to this: no magic insight, I don’t care about the teams around here, and it isn’t like I am learning anything.
2) I am going to become apathetic when it comes to politics- Will I vote still? Yes. But watching any cable news shows or absorbing any of the ridiculousness that passes for political discourse is over. The system and the people in it are broken. (Both sides) And the discourse and debate around politics have turned into a ridiculous PR battle with zero substance. Cable news doesn’t cut through the bullshit of it they just encourage it.
The most news I will watch will be the nightly news or the BBC world news. (At best.) I will no longer tune into a cable news show. Also I am not going to debate politics on FB or Twitter. In fact I am just going to hide people that say ignorant things and not attempt to engage in a debate with them.
3) Enjoy Life- Do things that I want to do. I don’t need to consistently work.
Okay I had to get that off my chest.