I just don’t care. Right now I have about 8 e-mails to respond to on match.com from semi attractive women that have interest in me. There are women I have gone on multiple dates with that I like, had sexual chemistry with, and enjoy being around yet I haven’t made any plans with them for this weekend. Usually my male sex drive would kick in joined by my desire not to be by myself and I would go find someone to do something with but… meh.
Last night I realized that I just don’t give a shit right now. I’ve felt like this for a month now. The thing is I can’t put my finger on why. Lets break this down to what could be the reason why:
1) I have some form of depression
I could possibly have a reverse case of seasonal affective disorder where I get depressed when summer rolls around but shine when the winter hits. Of course that can’t be true because I generally hate going out in public during the winter because I have to do things like “shovel”, “clean off the car”, and worst of all “put pants on”. Apparently society truly does look down on you when you rock out with your cock out no matter what those t-shirts say.
2) I’m gay
Nope…. Nothing. No movement down there.
3) I am too focused on building my own company and taking over the world.
My little business that I left my real job for last year had begun to really take off. I almost have more business than I can handle, that is why you are seeing less out of me blog post wise. Thoughts of me becoming a multi-millionaire have begun to fill my head and the fantasy of becoming rich has led me to dream about fulfilling my list.
However that can’t be it, all the money in the world can’t replace empty sex as a motivating factor in my life.
4) The death of Bea Arthur has destroyed my passion for women
This has to be it….
I am open to your theories, what do you think it is?